Friday, September 5, 2008

I give him to You

I know you call us to surrender to you daily. I am not always faithful in specifically submitting to you first thing, and I feel you calling me to do so. Here I am, my Father. Thank you for loving me so. Thank you for your daily provision.

Right now, I lift up my little boy Caleb to you. This morning, he did not want to go to preschool. He clung. He cried. His countenance was down. He was so sad.

Lord, why am I even doing this? I know he does not have to be there. That is why I am home. I am here for my sweet little boys!! It was soooo hard to walk away while my sweet boy whimpered. I had to actually turn my back on him... and walk away from his cries.

Does it hurt You the same way when you must turn Your face away for a brief time? Thank you, Lord. You ALWAYS understand.

You have called us to this preschool. You have called us to this time. You have shown me specific reasons why I should send him there, and send him there now. I must trust you.

I weep deeply before you. I give him to You. You are in that place. You are beside him. Your hands are working through the most loving teachers, and sweet friends. He is yours.

He is yours. not mine.
I surrender.... one day at a time.

Your ways are higher than mine. Your understanding is not my own. Praise You.

3 friends had a thing or two to say...:

Sarah said...

Thank you for visiting my blog today and leaving a comment. Your words mean so much.
You have a beautiful family!

Tessa said...

Hello my friend ... I am sorry it took me so long to comment. I am hoping that you are feeling God's peace about Caleb and going to preschool. One of the toughest parts of parenting has got to be letting them go when you know it is okay, but they don't!

Christine said...

Just wait until you have to send him off to college!... deep sigh...they grow up way to fast. I love your prayer. Thanks for sharing =O)